Coming Out

My entire life, I've been on the fence about homosexuality and gay marriage. There was a period in my life where I was curious about relations with other women. I've been attracted to the same sex. However, nothing replaces the safety and warmth of cuddling up next to my husband at the end of a long day :)

I have a handful of friends that are gay... and yes, even family! My opinion of gay marriage does not change how I feel about my friends and family. With that being said, I'm coming out. I oppose gay marriage. For years, I've hidden that opinion for fear that I'd upset my homosexual friends and family. However, in this free world that I'm entitled to live in, I feel FREE opening up and saying it.

Why do I oppose it? Because there's a quivering, deep in my soul that screams that it's wrong. The same quiver exists at the mere thought of someone being homosexual, but there are those things that just can't be changed. However, marriage? I understand the desires of the human soul to want to join with another for eternity. I do! I'm married...

Let's take God out of the picture (although, ultimately, his voice is huuuuuge in my heart - let's look at anatomy.) Let's say God didn't exist, and we're going off of the theory of evolution. Women cannot procreate with women, as men cannot procreate with men.  "but but but... we can adopt... we can use surrogate mothers... we can, we can, we can...." NO! No ok!?" It's not supposed to happen that way. 1 stick + 1 stick = 2 sticks... 1 stick + 1 hole = 1 stickinahole... 1 hole + 1 hole = a bigger hole. Yep, I really did just type all that.

I got to thinking, too, about how everyone is opposed to the government saying who can and can't get married. And then I thought, how terribly ironic that when it comes to divorce - people run to the first lawyer they can afford because they surely want the law on their side when it comes to getting their fair share of alimony, child support, dividing up investments, etc. Maybe if people could be as rational in divorce as they are about falling in love, then I'd fall for all this "marriage equality" bullshit.

But what drives the nail into the coffin on this subject for me, ultimately, is God. I refuse to be silenced, or pushed into a corner because of my religion. Ultimately, I don't owe anyone an explanation on why I oppose gay marriage - but I feel FREE enough to give it here for the world to see. I'm a God fearing, God loving woman. Does it mean I'm perfect? No. However, it's this love and this fear that drives a lot of my morals and values. Yes, I had premarital sex. Yes, I had a child out of wedlock. Yes, I eat bacon. Do I believe I'll burn in hell for these sins? No. (and that leads to a completely different blog that I'm not ready to address yet.)

Anyway... My 2 cents on why my facebook profile picture doesn't bear the = sign this month. Why it never will. Why you won't see me fighting for equal rights for homosexuals. I love you all, but I do not agree.