An End, and a Beginning....

What a rollercoaster my life has been over the last year and a half! The end of the military... the beginning of civilian life. The end of being the working girl, the beginning of being a stay-at-home mom... now, the end of being a stay-at-home mom, and the beginning of my first job in the civilian world. I am beyond nervous about tomorrow morning! I've worked before... I've worked for 12 years before. It's different in the military though.... working is just what you do. It's what you were trained to do. It's your sole purpose for existing in the organization. Now, when I work... it's my choice! Above all, I don't want to suck at it. I want to walk through those doors and apply the same passion to what I'll be doing as I did to my job in the military. I want to learn more, and do more for these people so that I can not only earn pay raises - but more than anything... I want them to love me. I want to become part of this family that they've developed within their practice and I want to grow with that!

I'm nervous about this new routine I'll have to start again... Victoria will be going to daycare for the first time ever! She'll attend the same one, with Ava... however, she'll be going alone once Ava starts kindergarten in August. Not only will I be working, but I'll be juggling motherhood as well. I'm the one who will have to deal with the children 90% of the time, as Nico is working as well and his hours are much more demanding than mine. I'll have to try to finish out Ava's baseball season (hopefully the new employers will have mercy on me!) Stevie's got teacher-parent meetings occasionally, moreso during the end of the school year. I've got a couple more to attend on her trip to Disney. I've also got to figure out how to get her signed up for 6th grade next year!

I also have to juggle cooking... getting off work around 630pm, rushing home to start dinner and have children in the bath and in bed by 830 so we can do it all again! I know this is all possible - I mean... how many parents in the world do this on a daily basis? I just have to remind myself to breathe, and take each little step, one step at a time! We'll cross each bridge as we come to it.

G'bye unemployment. I'll miss you, just a little bit. I'll miss sleeping in, and being bored, and playing facebook games until my eyes cross. I'll miss the unemployment checks! However, I can honestly say that I'm ready to contribute to this family a little more than I'm doing now! I'm ready to get out, meet people, have ADULT conversations, and let my children be children (somewhere else.) LOL!

CHEERS - to the civilian life. Get 'r done!