I feel so disconnected from all of my friends and for that I am sorry. I've had to really turn inward to make it through the days here recently. There's just so much to do! Beds to be made, laundry washed, kids fed and bathed... rides to school, long hours at work, aerobics classes to try to enjoy. I walk around with my eyes open, but I'm not really sure I can see through them - if that makes sense. I try to mold such a strict, predictable routine so that I'm not thrown off course (all the while, using my kids as an excuse for the routine!) hehe...
Things are still getting better though. I think Nico and I make a great team when it comes to dealing with the girls. We're still pushing Stevie to try her best academically, we're still getting Ava to German kindergarten every morning so she can experience her own little life, and Victoria keeps us in check and lets us know if we've forgotten that it's time for her to eat or be changed! The only baby in the house who has been neglected recently is my beloved Zeus. So sad that at the end of the night, after all the girls are in bed and I've had an adequate amount of "me" time on facebook - I put my laptop down to find he'd been staring at the back of my monitor, just waiting for his turn in my lap. So for 5 more minutes, I scoop him up and hug him tight, hoping this allotted time will keep him from turning against me.
No, I'm definitely not dead yet. I've never been busier in all my life! :)
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