Greener grass... greener pastures... hell, I came back to TX cause I missed the crunch of the yellow grass in the winter. Now it's summer, and I'm still crunching yellow grass - and I miss Germany so bad that my heart hurts. I miss the wet pavement, and the damp air, and the smell of the pine. I miss my German friends... I miss my family.
I came back to Texas because I wanted my children to experience things that I did when growing up. I grew up 30 years ago. Things aren't the same now that they were then.
I came back to Texas to reconnect with old friends. The excuses were easier to accept when I lived in Europe.
So I google "how to live in Germany... or France... or Luxembourg." International schools for my children would be approx 60,000 euro per year. Not possible. I looked for houses to buy in Paris. HAHAH!!! Not possible.
I thought maybe England? then I just get consumed in all the things I don't know... cost of moving. Cost of living. Cats. Dogs. Kids.... possible, but not.
If it's pine and rain I miss... would Oregon suffice? What about Georgia? So I search for homes for sale in Georgia and WOW! Mansions in the price range we can afford... then I look at job opportunities and find nothing in the fields that my husband and I are qualified for.
Why Europe? Why not Turkey or Israel or ... or any of the other places I've been to and experienced with my whole heart? It feels like EVERY place I've lived in or been to, I've drank it up. Tasted every ounce of all it had to offer. Missed them so bad it hurt, every time I had to leave them.
So where then... if I'm not happy in this place, at this moment... where, or what would make it all better?
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